Oh man, why do we have to be back in school already? Didn't we just have finals? This Latin first thing in the morning is already killing me. Don't they know 8 in the morning is too early for a dead language?

Anyone else wishing break had lasted a little bit longer? I know I am. Vacation was incredible - even if I didn't leave the country like some people I'm look at you, Jordan - and I wouldn't change it for the world. How was everyone else's break? Did you guys have fun?

[private to Charm]
You know you made everything perfect, right? And don't say no you didn't, because you did. I know I said it already, but I'm glad it was you. I couldn't imagine it being with anyone but you.

I love you.
[/private]

Hey, Charm. Don't make any plans Friday night.

You know what I hate? People who don't want anything to do with you until they want something from you. Fakers and haters to the left.

[private to friends: Jordan, Isaiah, Ollie, Keegan, Jaidev, Addie, Jin, Vinnie, Rowan]
So guess who wanted to talk to me today? Bells. She said she "missed me" and "wanted to make amends". But all she wanted was a shoulder to cry on because her jerk of a boyfriend is missing. Which sucks, yeah, but come on. Why the hell would she talk to the person she cut out of her life for dating said boyfriend?

And when I called her on it, she called me a "spiteful coward" for not giving her a second chance.

Last I checked, I wasn't the one throwing ultimatums around. And if she wanted to make amends, why wait until now? Why not the weeks before when she had plenty of chances? Was she always this self-centered and I just never realized? Or is this a new development from the company she's been keeping? I don't know. And really, I don't care any more. She threw our friendship away, not me.

But I don't know...could I have been too harsh? My gut tells me no, but then I remember how close we used to be...

No. Fuck it. I'm done.
[/private]

You know what also sucks? All these people going missing. Yeah, I didn't like a couple of them, but some of my friends are missing - one more this weekend - and it reminds me of when just doesn't feel anything approaching right. I think some folks had the right idea about not going into town alone. But it'd be better if, y'know, people would just stop disappearing.

Not everything has been sucking lately, though. The 4th of July weekend was pretty damn nice back home. And I hear I missed a kick-ass party. Skinny dipping? Really That's a shame, but at least there's going to be another one soon. and I am definitely not missing that one.

[private]
Things with Isaiah have been...Well, they've been pretty damn amazing. It'll be two months next Wednesday. Two months. Yeah, I've lasted longer with others, but I've never felt about them even half the way I feel about him. And I've never even done any of the things I've done with him. Beyond kissing, I mean.

We've gone well beyond kissing at this point. Like, full on naked. But we haven't...done everything. But I think I want to. No, I'm pretty damn sure I want to.

But I don't know if we should before I can man up enough to make our relationship public.

I wish there was someone I could talk to about this, but I just don't know who.

Man, it's been way too long since I've had a chance to sit down and write in this thing. You could say I've been busy dealing with my own stuff. As I'm sure everyone else has. My weekdays have been a bit touch and go, but my weekends? Nothing but bliss. How about you guys? Been having good times? Bad?

I know there's some stuff that's been going around lately that's not been cool. But hey, what can you expect from some people? shouldn't come as a surprise from folks who'll choose hormones over friends. At least people are getting what they want.

Speaking of getting what you want, I want all this rain to go away. It's getting ridiculous now. And it's cutting into my time with my Charm.

And I guess I should come clean about that before any more drama since a few people have been asking questions. Yes, I'm seeing someone. Charm is a nickname. Those who know who I mean I trust to keep that information to themselves. Not that I have a choice. I'm keeping things private because this is the most important thing that's ever happened to me and I don't want to mess anything up. We just had our one-month anniversary and I still can't believe I sang so far, so good. But yeah, I'm officially off the market. Ladies, try not to take it too hard.

So I'd heard there were plans for a bunch of us to go see Transformers on Friday. Is that still happening? If so, when?

[private to Jai]
I heard about that howler you got, man. I take it you told your parents about Jen?
[/private]

I made the team! You're looking at the new wide receiver for Bishop.

Finally, something is going right this week.

[private to Isaiah]
Do you feel like celebrating?

So, my weekend was pretty incredible. How about yours? I almost didn't want to come back. But then, I would have missed tryouts. That would have sucked.

Fortunately, I made it to tryouts, and I think I did okay. At least, I don't think I embarrassed myself. Thanks again, Jai, for driving me into the ground helping me train.

Now I just have to wait until Friday for the list. Stress!

[Private to Charm]
Thanks for being there today. It really helped seeing you there. Even if feeling you watching me reminded me of other things...

Oh, um. Jai saw us kissing at the cookout. Well, he saw me kissing someone, but he has no idea who it was, thank God. We might want to be a little more careful...

And can you tell River to stop

Thank God all that drama's over. It's sad to see some folks go, but definitely not others these things happen.

Now I can really concentrate on tryouts. Which are next week - a bit less than three days, actually. Man, I'm nervous.

Oh, hey! Ro! Thanks again for my present. Even though you really shouldn't have. It's amazing, though, and I love it. Yeah. Thanks. :)

[private]
This is the funniest thing I've seen in a while. It's godawful, but hilarious. Man, I love those guys.

Just when I thought shit was calming down someone went and had to be a complete ASSHOLE.

Whoever sent that out is TWISTED. I don't care how pissed you are at someone, YOU DO NOT DO THAT. That's crossing a line.

Also, whoever did it...did you stop to think that maybe you were breaking the law? Because holy hell did you EVER. I hope you're caught and I hope you're expelled at the very least. If you don't get jail time.

[private to Maggie]
I know you have better people to go to right now for comfort, but I just wanted to let you know, I am so sorry this happened and if you need anything, I got your back.
[private]

This shit needs to STOP.

This shit is getting way too stupid. And it doesn't help with people adding fuel to the fire. And doesn't help that I can't sleep yet because of homework. ARGH.

If anyone needs me, too bad.


[hastily charmed private after Jaidev's comment]
Except you, Charm.

You want to do something tomorrow during after classes? I really need to unwind.

So who else had a killer Memorial Day weekend? I had way too much fun, and ate way too much. Especially my grandmother's homemade samoas. Too bad I had to come back to school and all the bullshit drama. But it's over and done with and I'm feeling okay. I've got my friends, I've got my health, and I've got my Charm. What more could I ask for?

Oh, right. A spot on the Bishop team. With the way JZ's been kicking my ass on the field after classes, I better. I've learned some sick moves and managed to shave some serious time off of my drills. With two weeks to go, I bet I can do even better. I'm going to make wide receiver. I know I am.

[private]

And yet again, Cliff Banks proves himself a raging asshole. And the thing that got to me wasn't what he was saying about me, but what he was saying about Bells. Or at least, what he was suggesting.

I don't know if I should tell Bells what an asshole he was being. She might not believe me or think I'm just trying to break them up. Isaiah said I should anyway, and if she doesn't believe me...Well, I just hope she does.

I'm glad Isaiah and I are going to Boston tomorrow just to be alone for a while and get away from all this mess.

[/private]

I'm so glad the weekend's here. I know I'm not the only one. I already booked solid for Saturday, though, so if anyone wants me...too bad.

Addie, we're still on for pancakes on Sunday, right?

EDIT: Almost forgot! Rowan, I got a B on my history test. Thanks! :)