cupcake with fanflakes

Last for this month

2010-03-14T22:00:05Z

I'm ending this weekend's worth of photos with the following two. I still have a bunch to level up, but I'll have to leave that for next month...if I plan on passing my exams and graduate...this year...>.> ... I said this once, and I'll say it twice: PATIENCE, YOU CRIPPLED VIRTUE!! >.<

Slide show of the whole portfolio here: Silverlight WL Gallery

Back so soon XD

2010-03-13T23:47:18Z

Moar kyandy! I have no idea what's happening to me. Pink is starting to look less..."pink" ~___~ I'll probably be wearing pink fluff and white/red ribbons soon O.o
....
I'm seriously not gonna imagine that...
Better leave any candy sweet color JUST for the photos...nothing less, nothing more.

~*~ ~*~

Slide show of the whole portfolio here: Silverlight WL Gallery

Winter Holidays

2009-12-21T18:39:43Z

Oh, pretty long time since I last dropped by. I guess some things will never change after all, and I’ll never make a decent habit out of updating this journal at least weekly. I am trying though...right, who am I kidding? >.>

On to the main subject: currently packing bags while finishing the last touches on the flat’s Christmas decorations. I had a little trouble with the last one since my lovely Christmas tree decided gravity was too much for the finery adorning its branches, and just...fell! >.< It scared the shit out of me. I saw it leaning to the side when I was passing by the living room’s entrance, but before I registered what was happening, and attempted catching it before it hit the floor, it was already too late.
Thankfully, only one of the old balls shattered (a red one too! *sobs*), the new ones are plastic made (so less prettier) and survived. I fought the next hour trying to fix the tree safely back in its support, but failed miserably, and ended up tying it to something til dad would come home and do his job properly (hopefully) this time. I blame him for the loss.

I’ll be spending Christmas Holidays with my entire family, uncle, aunts, cousins, at the country side...like always actually. But I’m sure I wouldn’t have it any other way. It’s been like this since I was born, the only difference is that sadly, we’re not as many as we were before.
It should be a really joyful one this year too, with all the snow that’s been piling up for the last week. We haven’t had this much snow before Christmas in almost five or six years I think. I’ve always loved white winter holidays, and was actually talking to my sister and grandma, about two weeks ago, how wonderful it would be if it would snow like when I was a little girl, with pretty, heavy flakes, for entire weeks, until the snow would reach more than 5ft. Winters like those were my favorite time of the year.

I’m planning to stay there until the end of the week, but I think I won't be able to get back until late Monday, or Thursday most probably, since I’m not sure if any of the coach lines will work until after the second day of Christmas, and my dad will most definitely not bring me home himself.
Surprisingly, it’s not as scary a thought as it was in the past years. The idea of staying there almost seven days, without internet or even my pc, on this cold weather...I guess I’m comforted by the thought that this year, I’ll have enough things to keep me from joining their camp and become one of the routine people: eating fat, drinking homemade red wine, watching tv and sleeping until thoroughly sickened by my bed...
Ahh I’m slightly exaggerating, I like the atmosphere of being all together, though if not for the games, reminiscence of their childhood times (I should make an entry about this, since it’s such an amazing topic to debate) and occasional engaging discussions, if not for these, I’m sure I wouldn’t be able to survive 2 days with them, under the same roof.

The ‘medicine’ consists of two freshly printed original slash fictions (@fictionpress), four volumes of Togainu no Chi, one Naono Bohra smutty manga, and two yaoi novels I bought this summer but didn’t manage to digest thoroughly. I’ll also bring along Genki II in hopes that I’ll manage to catch up some two or three more lessons. I should really try to get myself in line with Japanese, or I’ll be facing hell when the finals begin.

Lastly, I shouldn’t type this here, as I’m certain I won’t be able to complete the task, but...if my mood is positive enough, and I won’t give in to laziness, there are two original fics I’m working on, fantasy themed, that I will try finishing by the time I get back. I’m planning to put these up somewhere...but the chances that I change my mind and decide otherwise, even if I do finish them, are still pretty high. I’ll see.

Well, I don’t update often, but when I do, it’s consistent at least. XD
This is it. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

stock image by joy_coloring @LJ

More icons&CO

2009-08-08T23:56:25Z

tum dum dum! x3 I'm wasting time a lot lately. I was supposed to patch up my portfolio for the upcoming interview with the nice 'uncle'...but I'm slaking like never before...and doing exactly what I shouldn't do in photoshop ~___~
bla~~

Goodies [scans from oguri_shun LJ community and asianfanatics gallery]:

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6	7	8	9	10

friends banner

Any credit is highly appreciated.

Photoshoping

2009-08-03T11:12:15Z

I haven't touched photoshop in a very long long time (well maybe make that once or twice, when I had to install it several times on my new Windows, which by the way is getting shittier by day...I can't figure out why it takes so much of my pc's memory and saving pictures in ImageReady takes like forever to process ~__~ but...), here I was today remembering how to play with layers and leveling again.
I've been meaning to tickle some stock photos I took a while ago, test them and see if they'd go well as icons, and some did while others made me lose my patience >.>
Stock material. I'm not sure it's the right thing to call them (random icons would fit them just as good).
A soft theme, light colors, sticky notes and a little toy. Nothing much beside that.

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Any credit is highly appreciated (especially since I'm the one that took the photos too ^^)

DON'T LEAVE THEM FOR TOMORROW!!

2009-06-30T12:35:14Z

itinerary for today

~make your first batch of LJ icons!
~plan at least 3 themes for your portfolio: try experimenting water with fire, macro/slow motion photography
~tidy up old memories
~write Minhwan's background history
~start the second chapter of JongKi fanfic

* you get a cookie for each finished task ^______^

Ja~~

Black and white

2009-05-04T20:03:36Z

Happy moments come in special packs...always. That’s what smiling people will tell you. They live in their own happy little world, where nothing can ever spoil their positive thinking. Not even a damn real and almost tangible revelation dropped on their heads to wake the pink, fluffy brain from its legendary slumber. Their eyes are so keen on seeing JUST the half full side of the glass that they fail to understand the meaning of draught, and once it hits, they fall like ‘artificially nourished chicken’ stricken by their harsh faith: serving others.
I hang on a real thin and loose string just between the two holes. And I prey that when and IF it rips, I’d have grown my wings strong enough to carry me where the sun rises. I wouldn’t be able to choose between black and white; the industrial or farmed chicken? Eventually they end up in the same way right? So better be wild and untamed.
Following THE pattern has never been one of my childhood dreams. I’ve always wanted to build my own, unique one.

Ok, so now that I’ve chilled a little, I can get to the real good stuff xD.
Having a consistent monthly paycheck is getting me a little greedy and quite wasteful these days. To put it straight and short, it took only 2 hours right after having received last month’s salary, to spend it all in one go. Add to that “committing” almost half of my next payment also, and you get a freshly in debt temy ^^. I’m officially one of the mediocre working class starting 30th of April. This should have me quite frustrated right? And yup I am...actually lots, but for entirely different reasons.

Now, on what did I spent that big amount of money? Oh nothing much, just got one of those...how do they call ‘em...yeah Nikon I think, a D40 or smth. xDDDD
I GOT MY NIKON AT FUCKING LAST!!! Take that bad karma, take that bad luck, take that Pixuron!!! *shakes fists* Take that whatever dwarf, fairy or dainty that had me burning incenses after incenses for my dream, only to laugh at my helplessness! And look at meh mama! *shiny grin* Aren’t I lookin’ goooood with the Nikon strap around meh neck? Hehe...*strikes some proudly poses* ‘tis just the right size you see, not too heavy, not too loose, just dangling perfectly on my chest xDD
*long breath* I feel a lot batter now :3
I’m still quite ecstatic, 3 days after the lucky happening.

Friday was the 1st of May, and as the stingy law states, no honest citizen is to work until the last minute of the day. 24 hours free time is not enough if you ask me, but I’m not complaining since I came to appreciate whatever minutes of repose I get. And the position was quite fortunate this year. We had a slightly longer weekend to manage a little escapade if we fancied one. I sure did xD.
Took advantage of the 3 days to go out of town with some friends, and it turned out entertaining enough...especially the last day.
Mery-chan proposed a little herd rout: laze around, watch some horror movies and a bit of anime at her lordly mansion xD. But since it’s about US we’re talking here, it turned out like this:

#1 We planed on leaving town early on Friday morning...reaaally early, too early for my already tortured metabolism actually, so I declined xD. It was good enough that I didn’t have to fight my way with Ina-chan and Mery-chan, couse Alex came to visit my kouhai all the way from Italy, so she decided to come after the bouncy party had left, later that day. I wasn’t confident enough to let her on her own though...I’m a good senpai and would never risk putting my adorable little ones in jeopardy xD, so I offered to come with her (more like to make sure she wouldn’t change her mind about coming the 3 hours journey all on her own).
And so, we left around 6, intending to get to our destination: Campulung, around 9 pm. Success! We managed that. But as small is it may be compared to Bucharest, that little town has its secret streets, hideaways and BRIDGES! like any other respectful town, of course.
So here you have two lost birds: one piece of temy and one piece of Ina, chattering their teeth somewhere close to the center of a town they knew nothing about, at night and with a perfectly chilly rain pouring over their heads why not?
It took us about an hour, with Ina-chan’s incredible scout coordination, my amazing ability to follow orders without questioning (like I’ve never did before in my entire life! >.<) and poor Mery-chan’s efforts to get us to actually find a place we’d be able to recognize from her descriptions. I won’t say that we actually passed her house on our blind attempts of getting out of the rain, couse that would really make us look like amateurs. (yesh...we still think we’d be able to get around quite well, all on our own in Tokyo ^^;;)
Eventually we found each other, and got under shelter before anything worse happened (I was really close to offering a kidney, my liver or smth to get at least the passenger seat under an umbrella...preferably with a bishie driving under alcohol influence...who knows where we’d have ended up x33...but I’m not so lucky, someone would say xD).

#2 Once inside the house, and warmly seated with a cup of cocoa to calm the chilliness, I realized Mery-chan’s house had the lordly feeling about it still persistent. A lot of the things were as old as her great-grandma, yet they were presented in a really good shape. From French literature written on dusty, brownie pages to the impossibly beautiful curtains shadowing high ceiling rooms, most of the old decorating items were displayed in a museum kind of fashion. It made the staying pleasant and strange at the same time.

#3 The first night we planned on watching Blair Witch Project. They did, I slept. They whined, I was thankful I slept. xD The only thing I can faintly remember (more from their after review) was some hysteric woman’s moans and cries of fear and of course “Josh” which she kept calling in distress, switching to “Mike” towards the end of the movie, when apparently she’d been left as the only survivor of the “oh terrifying” experience she deliberately went to search for. Bottom line, I’m glad I didn’t gave up on sleep for the movie ^^;;

#4 The next day we went walking, a bit of ‘hill hiking’, made a bad choice in deciding the place to eat at, played some cards when we got back to the house and put another movie: Parfume. Again, temy only got so far as the first 10-15 minutes in the beginning, before she dropped dead with sleep >.< I remember the OST the best though! xD And from the bits I saw, it was quite interesting, so made a note to get the movie and watch it once I find some free time.

#5 Last day was short, just wasted time waking up, getting ready and deciding whether to get home by train or with a coach. After some difficult pondering xD we were left with no other choice than the train, and that’s when the best of things happened. In search of a place to eat at, someone up there remembered that we were (or at least I was) starving and had mercy on us. We bumped into heaven. The place, the food and the music were just perfect.

#6 We ended up going home with no tickets; all the places had been booked when we got to the train station, but luck was still with us and we bought our way with even less money than a student would pay for a ticket with deduction xD.

Well...that was a brief review of my possibly last holiday before Christmas (omfg...I can’t believe I’m starting to believe I’ll be working here that long! >.<). It was a nice time overall.
The company made the difference ^__________^

Ja~~

Bellow are a few sample photos

who says I’m never late? >,<

2009-04-06T09:40:53Z

And so:

I was late…half an hour late…gomen Ina-chan! >.< I promise I’ll compensate my lack of punctuality with other, more interesting stuff xD *cough* like smut *cough* more smut *chough*cough* and did I say smut? on paper I mean xD *cough*cough*cough*
damn I think I got the flu! x33

I didn’t update the journal two nights ago as supposed…yee, I’m a lazy ass and proud of it (not really -__-). But I’m doing that just now, better later than never. And it goes this way:

#1 Standup comedy. Well I think it could have been better. Beside the fact that being among so many people that share the same interest as you (after such a long time of feeling so restless and incapable of remembering why you like this particular thing better than the most) is enough to recharge your batteries for the next couple of weeks…leaving this aside, the show had just the perfect amount of appeal to keep your ears perked to the very end, the acting having been displayed in not the most ordinary scenarios you’d expect to see at a Romanian theatre. Slightly lacking, but worthy nevertheless.
I found the story line specific to Japanese compositions, even if the plot was shaped after the everyday/mediocre local lives. Happy, bumpy and engaging from the beginning to the middle and a tad beyond, until the ‘never missing’ dramatic strop (which is usually closely related to the piece’s moral) drops down on the spectator’s head to spoil his expectations…just a tiny bit xD.
Overall, I’d take up on shows like these, the rare chances of seeing anything Japan-related in this country making them really special.

#2 Went shopping yesterday…though it felt more like sight-seeing, since I had to drag my feet (Ina-chan’s and Mery-chan’s feet as well ^^;; …sorry ladies xD) for about 4-5 hours through an expensive assed mall, only to spend a small fortune on just a few pieces of clothing >.< *silence…blinks…AND revelation* What the hell was I thinking, going to spend my money in that kinda place??? someone care tell meh? ~___~…though, it was a small fortune after all…so maybe it was worth it? Right! *scowls and sighs* There won’t be a next time, that’s for sure.

#3 Already started my second month at work. It’s been one hell of a week, the last. And I’m feeling even more tired than I was when I first began…though I should have gotten used to it by now. I just can’t keep up with the tiring schedules, and not being able to study as I’d like to, has me all frustrated most of the time. Thank god I have my two ‘kouhais’ to steal me away and inject the necessary doze of nihon no mono, even if just a little strop of it.

#4 I had this sudden urge to write something about TVXQ’s “Kiss the baby sky” single (and PV) but I lost my appetite (again…I’m trying to put the words down for 2 weeks now...>.<)

Hmm...this should be all, gotta write HongKi’s reply…(I bet you’re more eager than Jonggie to see it , right Ina-chan? xDD)

Ja~

ps: prints prints prints!! I got TVXQ A3 calendar PRINTS!!! *____* Ah now that’s one thing I’m really grateful about at my work place: *secret* prints for free xDD

Quicky update

2009-04-04T12:53:10Z

Yaaaaay...just a little preview of my next entry (that would follow in a couple of hours...am just too giddy and excited now, so posting this to make sure I won’t get lazy and skip updating tonight).

#1 Got my paycheck this week...FINALLY...after a friggin tiring, ugly and never ending month...not to mention japandoze’less >.< !! I finally got what was mine to have: Money!...which implies: manga (2 orders = a total of 9 books on the way), a new phone (which I got: Samsung E210) not so fancy but it has the basic modern looks inside and outside (yaay for bishi wallies ^^), and I got internet access on it (can use the e-mail and Windows Live x33) for which I can AFFORD to pay now hehe ^____^. What else...hmm, ah yes...gotta go shopping tomorrow (or today if I find the time...and right place with my picky taste >.<...there’s a good rhyme xD), aaand I got a LJ subscription (for one month)...looking to get a 3 months one for my DeviantArt account...soon ^^.

#2 Now the really interesting news: I’m going to a standup comedy tonight: Karaokeman, with Morio Kazama, directed by Ryuji Mizutani...and I have high hopes for it, looking forward to spending some quality time in between these demanding working days (no...I’m not complaining...though I wish I did xD).

Ja~

to be continued...later ^^ (else Ina-chan might kill me for being late...though I can't prevent it anymore xD)

it's been confirmed

2009-02-23T13:35:24Z

While you think I’m all you’ve never been, I’m nothing more than a small soul to pity, trying hard to keep its ground but failing miserably in favor of a selfish illusory portrait. My willful submission is a perfected emotion cloth, camouflaging the suppressed hatred that I’ve carefully nourished behind coerced nods and slow breaths. Your satisfied smiles thrown at my unnerved accomplishments churn the thorns in my stomach, forcing them to release a poisonous sentiment to flow through my veins...equivalent to your existence as a heavy scented pride to wear like a lofty parenthood cloak.

Don’t ask me what’s inside my heart right now...couse the horrid feelings that reside in it will surly dissipate your ignorant good will.

You’ve only contrived to make me hate myself.

walking on a silky thread with no end...and I’m so tired. I am.

2009-02-19T23:05:35Z

there’ll be no Good Morning anymore, just the hastiest of Get Ups. your sleepy and uncertain feet will build repugnant hours with each wasted minute, to check on your adult schedule...officially as one of them now.
a road you never asked to begin, the bridge you never thought of crossing, a life you never wished to write. your fountain pen that’s drying slowly. painfully.

and do they care?

false words against still powerless defenses. sly tongues to carry out their hidden threats. pointing fingers under fake guardian hoods to shadow up unnecessary talent. futile attempts to stand stone wall before their rule.
you’ll surely wither...and long be gone before the sun will rise.

misuchiru statement

2009-01-11T23:56:40Z

I'm a j-music listener. 90% percent of my music library's composed of japanese music artists.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>>.<~>.<<~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
whispers, notes, sound taking shape of music, drums inside of unconscious body, so early and yet I'm thankful...

表彰台に登った記憶なんかない
それで何不自由なく暮らしてきた
ひょっとしたら「あきらめろ」って僕は
僕自身を説得してきたのかも

and jump and twist and scream I'm still alive...and safely breathing; everything still stands tall before my eyes...so teasable, reachable and so close but yet so no within my reach.
so fearfully, in the end...

自分らしくある事　そこに甘えずに生きていたい
でもそのための一歩が踏み出せずにいるんだ

the song's still with me in the end...the voice still surrounds me and pushes past the buried mind...the rhythm enveloping and filling every hole inside of my sleeping being...
I grasp it...it's here and always will be.

革命は起きない
ありきたりの日々を
祈るように生きよう
Wake me up
Wake me up

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>>.<~>.<<~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Mr.Children ~ Wake me up!

I found this in my last.fm journal and reading it made me feel warm inside on this weather xD. I can’t really express why I always feel goose bumps when I’m listening to this song...or misuchiru in general.

It's not my habit to keep records of bands or any kind of music I listen to. I like to read different opinions/reviews about old/new singers, but I'm not one to recommend anything, since my interest in music is built on kinda odd reasoning. And I have the numerous failed attempts of making my friends listen to one particular artist or another, as more than obvious proof.

I feel, thought...that this band in deserves! at least one post in my journal.

When, how, why Mr. Children?

Well, the first song I heard from them was 抱きしめたい(dakishimetai). At that time I didn’t pay that much attention to it [thought it’s my favorite piece from their second album now], but some time later, when ‘Innocent World’ came out, Kazutoshi Sakurai-san’s unique voice piqued my curiosity and made me search more of their songs.
I’ve been an intense misuchiru listener ever since.

It’s really interesting how their every album sounds totally different from the previous or the next, but at the same time it’s strikingly similar. At first I thought it was the voice (obviously) that brought the resemblance, then the high jumps between emotions in their lyrics, or my imagination being ultra stimulated and creating different scenarios for every song while gathering and tagging them with the Album’s title…I never figured it out...but whatever it was, with every new song I kept listening to, I was unconsciously starting to enjoy that misuchiru phenomenon, that I first couldn’t understand.

Hearing and seeing them in Mr.Children DOME TOUR 2005 -I LOVE U- was another pleasant surprise. To tell the truth, I haven’t seen that many live concerts [right from the beginning to the end], but this one took my breath away, just by watching the recording. The intro little movie really makes your heart lighter. I sat in front of the screen and sipped every pixel and note of it, wishing I was actually there, in the crowd. And I promised myself that...eventually, I WILL see them performing live >.<

Now, there’s nothing I can say to the ones that already know and love everything that misuchiru is, but for those who are new and can’t see behind the first Mr. Children song, I can only tell you to listen better a second one. The others will follow suit ^____^

late night/early morning note

2009-01-09T01:52:25Z

*yawns* short entry.
just felt like sticking up that I've changed my profile layout on >> LJ <<...and I love the way it turned out xD.
the sign that Jae's holding should have said something smuttier I guess...but I couldn't think of anything catchy atm, so I'll leave it for another time.

*goes to bed*

decided xD

2009-01-06T23:38:15Z

ahh...so first day of uni this year turned out to be really promising...not quite 'attendable' if I may say so; bumped half way there into a friend and she turned me 180°...oh what a pity xD. Apparently there was no point in going to torture my already frozen brain in an empty ~~cold~~ class.
sooo sad! *looks the other way*

on another note >>and I can stamp this one as the really sad thing<< there's a preliminary exam for my ecc* course tomorrow (hmm today I mean...woa already past midnight >.<). pfft...and I'm still wondering if to attend ~~empty handed and headed~~ and get new furniture for my room [hmm maybe I do need a new chair] or pass it as　アブセンテ and take a luckier chance next 'round' [case in which I need to get some money to pay for it].
Aaaaand even though I'd rather use whatever income on my looong list of manga [there Ina-chan...aint I a good senpai? xD] I think I'll sacrifice myself and NOT attend this exam ~__~ [who am I telling this to...who cares? *sighs*]

Now, the Point of this entry...: pr0n >:D
yesh yesh...it's finally down to wanting to watch pr0n. At last!
Went to one of my favorite tea houses with my two adorable kouhai`s today, and leaving aside our usual ranting ~~yes I KNOWS you like Kanda!~~ we talked (or I and Mery did) about porn movies...
who watched and who didn't...
who wants and who doesn't...
to watch...
or not...
...
Well we didn't actually get to a conclusion.
BUT!
we will!...isn't that right Ina-chan? hmmm hmm? Aren't you just a tiny little itzy bit curious?? After all the plans you made about getting to Japan and setting our underground host club business? We need practice...need to dig to the bottom of this to get the hang of things right? xD
And I know Mery's with me! ^^

period here, before I get ahead of myself.

ja~

*english culture and civilization

temy @ 2009-01-05T20:52:00

2009-01-05T19:03:01Z

New start this week. For
uni, book, and journal
Also fully tasted 동방신기 for the first time after Rising Sun, with their latest single: Bolero. The PV’s intention seems nice, but I find it poorly directed. And just a note to remember, Yunho really took me off guard this time. I hope performing live won’t change my impression.

What next....

I’m not looking forward to this week...or this and next month for that matter, since I’m just your typical university lazy ass student that hates semester finals. But I don’t feel like ranting my displeasure right now, so moving on.

Started reading Genji. I’ll admit that it was for my japanese literature history course at first, but the book’s not that bad...yet. I heard you get bored of it once you pass the first 100 pages or so. But then again my liking usually flows against the current, so I’m keeping my hopes up for now.

Lastly...journal. nothing much. Just another way to get me in the mood for writing.

ja~

iNtro

2009-01-02T10:52:53Z

So...I've been meaning to get an account on Inksome for some time now, but wasn't quite sure if I should move for good from LJ. I thought about it while playing with all the little features that Ink has to offer compared to LJ that has them only for paid accounts (like limited user pics...I'm ei icon addict xD), layout customization (even though you can trick it to some point...it's simpler here ^^;)...and eventually decided that I'll keep this journal for personal ranting, icon/siggy/layout making and such....while keeping the LJ account for fiction writing and RPing. At least for now.
A big thank you to speculate for the invite ^___^