Excuse me, I have some rage. ♥

So, for those who haven't been following along, my mother is godawfully inept with computers. My computer has lasted me somewhere around six years. In that time, she has gone through three. This latest, and most epic, fail started when spyware masked as security said that she had a virus. She clicked on the notification without noticing that it wasn't from an anti-virus that she has, and. . . She tanked the whole computer.

Now, remember this, whenever my mother can't get net on her computer, she takes away my net. Because, clearly, my computer is somehow sabotaging hers.

I was upset at losing net, so I decided to fix-up her computer after she spent all of the previous net screaming at until it was righted. (Honestly, I could live without net for a long time if she didn't have extreme rage-ons that involve throwing stuff and hitting. Do not come to me with uncontrollable rage, because I will tolerate from only one person in this world.) If I could get her to use a safer browser with anti-virus and so on that has not failed me, she surely couldn't screw it up. Except when I did this fix-up, I overwrote her Outlook Express with a newer version that didn't have her password and so on. So, she decided to switch to a system restore point. . . It tanked.

She called a technician from a company that she had good experiences with to come over. After about two hours, the computer was once again fixed. In the time that she came home and spent an hour on her computer, the computer was once again tanked. I delivered the computer to their office, and they spent an entire agonizing four days with it. (Note: They told her that she could pick it up, and I went there to find out that it was not ready. This made me late for work, so I don't particularly like them. ♥) Now, after about three hundred dollars in repair costs and a remformatted hard-drive, this computer could not go wrong, could it?

Yes. . . Yes, it could. My mother tried to re-install Microsoft, but she started an install of XP Pro OS when she already had XP on it. She couldn't finish the install, so booting has become an interesting debacle that induces screaming. Then, the internet has always been batty, and it doesn't like this new computer.

So, I am on my brother's laptop once again to say that I will be on a hiatus until. . . Well, my mother stops being incompetent with computers. This might take awhile. ♥ At least, there is always net at the school computers.

Yyyup, this is not going to end well.

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1. Joshua Christopher
God, I could say so much about him. . . Really, I think I love him so much because I discovered my type with him. You never forget your first love, you know? Anyway, he's a sibling-obsessed creeper that doesn't act his age and has a twisted world view! For some reason, even if I'm not playing them, I just enjoy seeing these kinds of characters run around. They're complicated and different from the norm, so you get to sit and tinker. No reaction is the same as someone else's, and it's just fun. I don't find too many that fit this archetype, but I really enjoy it when I do. Akito, Rollo, You Haibara. . . . ♥

2. Incest
Just to, you know, clear this up. . . I have a younger brother! And I am squicking myself thinking of this at this point, thank you very much! Mm, I don't really know how I developed a ping like this, to be honest? It usually is a good hint to the above character type that I really like, because you are a depraved person if you have more than familial love for a sibling in anime/manga/whatever. I don't necessarily agree with this, but it usually points to the childishness that I like as well as having a different responses from everyone else too. Uh, usually it's just a relationship that was strained and gets put back together in a weird way that leads to incest, so. . . Yeah.

I have deeps?! . . . God, if I have to write an essay on this one ping and how all my characters get involved with their family.

3. CFUD
Mm. . . I'm glad I joined.

4. Kizna
Why is she here? . . . Dust, really, why? Uh, I played Kizna! I think she was the last spark of my genki girl pattern dying out. I can't picture myself with another high energy girl, but I'm glad that I got to try out the type. To be honest, it was a case of loving the canon more than the character which never translates well into play. . . Even now, I'd probably enjoy playing someone from MK, but I doubt anyone would ever app with me to keep a balance in play.

5. Flowers
Seriously?

. . . I am not big on flowers! I think they're nice and all, but I don't have a green thumb so I can't grow them. Then, I'm a practical person, so I don't see the point in buying something that is going to die. . . ? I do buy them for my mother as she enjoys them immensely, but that's about it. —Oh, because I have forever been a rebel, I decided my favorite flower was foxglove when I was six because they aren't roses which everyone ever likes.

Okay, I know there is an easy answer for this, but I am clueless!!

Continuing with computer problems, my mother took the computer to a shop where they fixed it and so on. She tried to install Word again, but ended up starting an install of XP Professional OS. (She's running XP OS now.) Now, we can switch from the install to the regular old start-up, but my mother is kind of extremely lazy, so I need to know how to get rid of the install.

. . . Tangentially, she offered to buy me a new computer. Nnnope, I am still solid with my baby who has not failed me.

And, hilariously, I got reminded that I had a question from two months ago on FormSpring today! . . . And I was singing the same song to Spencer last night! So, the question is how many of you have Britney Spears on the brain? If not, why don't you?

Hahahahaaa, three feet of snow and two days of work cancelled, oh shiiit.

I think I ought to watch Honey and Clover again. . . Then, plan a bike trip for the summer. I need to find how far my own two feet can take me.

The patch for Fatal Frame IV is out! But, unfortunately, I can't afford to buy the game, am lacking a Wii, etc. So, I am watching a playthrough of the game again. I get to reference the wiki which is up to date with information now, so I can get the gist of most everything that's going on! . . . And, oh, what I was missing!

See, I knew that there was this evil little child whose identity was kept secret for some reason! And she was really the daughter of this man who is related to the head of the hospital, etc etc. I thought this girl was wonderful, because she was about twelve. . . But also wrecked utter havoc on everyone in the psychiatric ward! Pushing other kids down the stairs, killing birds, playing with the limbs of broken up dolls, dragging nurses by their hair to her room—You name it, she's done it!

But, see, the beauty of it is—The real—beauty is who her father is. The head of the hospital is Shigehito, his daughter is Sakuya, his son is You, and his grandchild is Ayako, the crazy little girl. The reason why her identity is kept secret? It's because she's related to the head of the hospital, but she's also the daughter of his son and daughter. WHAT A TWEEST. What's more amazing is that with everything being translated, we found out that like father, like daughter. You is an evil, smirky bastard who thinks the whole world is a game! He really only thinks one person is a real rival and is so excited about it. Obviously, he's going to win, but it adds some intrigue. And he really, really loves his sister! His sister who is crazy like their mother is crazy from this weird disease around the island and because she sense spirits. I MEAN, THEY HAVE A KID! HE REALLY LOVES HER IN A BAD WAY!

What's terribly endearing, aside from killing and torturing people with no regret, is that he deeply cares about their daughter too! He wants his sister to get better, so that he and Sakuya and Ayako can all go live together happily. ♥ He even sleeps in the room next to his daughter's secretly, so they're always close to each other. T-The head of the hospital even mentions how alike the two are, sharing the same view of the world. And You is just sort of surprised, but offhandedly pleased by his daughter. But even Sakuya cares for Ayako and wants the best for her and so on! Sakuya feels really badly for her daughter and wants her to have peace and so on. D-D'aww.

Note, that even in death, You is a douchebag, though. When so and so realizes that OH YEAH THEY ARE DEAD?! . . . You is like GEEZ WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG TO GET IT. WHAT A PATHETIC RIVAL YOU ARE. And he totally goes along with re-enacting the events before he died and leading his rival who is so confused and lost along. He finds it kind of hilarious! . . . What a dick!






AND I AM NOT APPING HIM SO YOU CAN SHUT THE HELL UP BUT OH MY GODDD. THIS GUYYY.

Okay, okay, talking! Well, I've been really busy and social lately. Granted, I'm just getting into my "weekend" of this week, so it could be just getting used to this sort of schedule. —Ah, on schedules:

Mon: 8:30AM - 11:35AM Classes
Tues: 5PM - 8PM or 4PM - 8PM Work
Wed: 8:30AM - 11:35AM Classes
Thurs: FREE DAY HALLELUJAH
Fri: 8:30AM - 11:35AM Classes
Sat: 8:00AM - 4PM Work
Sun: 8:30AM - 3:00PM Work

The difficulty being that there is a second shift during the week either on Wednesday or Friday. But my boss has been playing around with the schedules lately, so it's hard to pin that down. Theoretically, it should change if I start getting waitress shifts, but I doubt that I will. Kim, I said I would throw this up for you so I can party crash with you guys again if Marissa plans anything.

. . . Yeah, I went up to New Brunswick and came back in one night in a hilarious, last-minute adventure. The girls were putting on the open house as usual, and Kim reminded me, so naturally I turned up. It was better than any other year with all the performances and so on. I got to run around like I was still in the house with recording and doing tarot card readings. (I totally lied on all of them, but shh.) Overall, it was better to be there than last year, not just because of the performances. Around this time last year, I was still doing nothing but recuperating and was so sad that I wasn't in school and I couldn't be there for real. This time, I am comfortable and content with my lifestyle. . . So, while we are going different ways and they are getting there before me, I am okay with that. I'm just going to terribly miss when all the girls graduate and I won't be able to party crash like I do. Mm, and a shout-out to Sera for putting up with me being absolutely silly. Thank you very much for offering to let me crash your couch, but I didn't want to be a bad guest and turn up in the morning. ♥ I will tell you when the house is getting up to something crazy so you can come and hang with us next time.

The open house had perfect timing though, as I have been perpetually flexing the, "Why don't I have a social life," issue. But the funny thing is while I gripe and groan about it, once I actually put my foot out, there's a lot of places and people for me to hang with. I don't give nearly enough attention to the girls of the East Asian house, and especially Kim. She's one of the dearest friends I have, and I never appreciate her like I ought to. Then, I'm finally hanging out with friends in this area. Admittedly, it's strange not to jump to old high school friends or the girls at work, but I am social! I can talk to people! So, that's working out well. Yeah, the kids in Spanish class always move away from me wherever I sit. (Stockton seems to have not grown out of the high school phase, I think.) And the girls at work have sort of stuck me in this space where I'm not welcome, but. . . I can work on it. It's getting better.

Phew! I really started this entry meaning to talk about roleplay, but. . . Whoops! So, it seems like the drop monster has finished at CFUD and all that. While Shu-chan took it the wrong way, I am working on giving less of a fuck about a roleplay! It's working out pretty well for me. See, the way I see it is. . . Camp seems not to be the same fun anymore. And it's pretty easy to shoot externally. For me, it's not the same people being around and then not getting to know new people. Yeah, I could try to reach out to them, but I've been having this problem for a year. . . I apparently don't want to work on it. So, I'll just accept everything as it is. I've tried dabbling with plots and do random curveballs as I like, but I alone cannot change the system. Really, I'm surprised it's taken me this long to apply this methodology to camp. Anyway, I'm playing for myself now. I'll tag as I feel like, but otherwise. . . Yeah, someone had better ask me for a thread. I'm pretty comfortable with it. Granted, I'm used to being a spam whore with some ninety comments per day, but that's just how it is. This is just my take on the system, but, eh, if it helps someone. . .

To be honest, I don't really want to drop anyone. I have a certain place for everyone even if I don't play them that much. Rei managed to squirm her way back into her place, so well done. All I'm really feeling right now is the need for more crazy people in my line-up. (A response to Zazzle getting Barry whom I adore? No.) But, I suppose, I could just play Akito more. . . Somehow. Derp. As usual, I'm feeling the slight draw to other games, but nothing will ever encapture all of camp, I think. So, if something comes along, perhaps ala Kim, then I will roll with it. . . But I'm not made for other games, I think.

. . . Yup, that's everything but the kitchen sink.

You know what could possibly make today better? A new car.

My mother and brother are arguing over who cheats more in a relationship. Yeah, I just needed to put that out there.

Mm, Haibara.

MY LIFE HAS BEEN A LOT OF FAIL LATELY.

Haha, updating from my brother's computer once again! So, while I did a lovely job updating my mother's computer, she wanted her old Outlook back. I don't blame her; I still use Winamp, after all. In the process of trying to system restore, the computer decided to blow up though, because it didn't have the install discs or something. It went downhill from there. . . So, the rule is that I'm not allowed to have net while mother's computer is borked. (Note: This is always the case, so if I disappear. . . Well, I will be back tomorrow, unless I think it is unwise!) A computer guy is coming to fix it today, but if he isn't able to. . . Well! I will be getting all of the espers on XII. :')

Also, I am still sick! And I can feel it in my eaaar! Augh!

You know, if I was stupid, I could charge my mother for the four hours I have spent fixing her computer, installing programs, and trying to make it fool-proof. I emphasize the trying, because my mother is spectacular at managing the impossible. Seriously, she's killed out three computers in the time that I have had one. . . Yeahhh. Except I did all of this just to the net back on my computer which is probably worth more than those four hours. Hey, hi, threads that got force-dropped will be picked up.

The good news is that I have been able to hjack my brother's computer for necessary downloads and music. The bad news is that I know she's going to scream at me about Ad Block, sigh.

EDIT: System restore, you are the goddamn devil.

It took me two classes before I started speaking Japanese (and French, uh) in Spanish class. I think that's a job well done.

. . . I feel like I ought to have more to say lately, but there is nothing going on. How boring, how droll.

EDIT: AAAAAH!! AAAAAAAAHHHH!! FF4 PATCH IS OUT!! I NEED TO BUY THIS GAME NOW. . . I should con my mother into trying WiiFit. 8)

For the record, I blame you, Shu-chan.

So, I didn't really tell anyone what went down this past weekend. Garrett, my younger brother, left the house after Mom flipped her shit at him. He didn't come home until we went to the school on Tuesday and talked with him while his principal was there. It took the threat of calling the police to force him to come back.

In my hoping to get in contact with him when he left, I checked my facebook for the first time in a year. (He's addicted to it, and I am obviously not.) Well, I did manage to get him to call me and tell me that he was okay. But I also came upon a message from my step-father. There's a lot I could say about him, but to keep this short: He's left an indelible impression on me for the rest of my life and not in a good way. I still haven't even let it actually hit me, yet.

All of this on top of not being sure if I'm getting into school this semester, my taxes being rejected, and so on. . . Well, it's left me a bit stressed out. Now, for the point of this, I don't like being upset and depressed. It's absolutely frustrating. I want to live my life as a guide to others, to not be a burden, and so on. I finally managed to cry last night, and I'm officially done moping now. So, I'm not okay. . . But I'm taking my mind off of it and doing what I need to.

I'm doing this to kick myself out of the house, really, but it's probably needed right now.

So. . . Love me. Cheer me up. Remind me of you.

You know what kind of defeats the purpose of intending to drop a character? . . . Buying that character paid time, and starting a replay of their canon, ffff.

Wow, an era is ending. . . Okay, I'm tossing any of this to whoever can cover the shipping charge. I'm not entirely certain what it is, but I will get back to everyone after I toss it at the post office. Not more than three dollars unless you're grabbing all of it??

- Sailor Moon VHS tapes
-- Skips around to important first season episodes
-- Dubbed
-- Boxes are pretty bad off
-- I will list them all if you ask, I'm just lazy now

- Sailor Moon VHS movies
-- R, S, and SuperS
-- Uhh, I watched them a lot :x

- Magic Knight Rayearth VHS tapes
-- The whole first season, minus the last tape
-- Dubbed
-- Gently used

- Escaflowne VHS tape
-- Uncut, dubbed
-- Gently used

- Ranma 1/2 VHS tapes
-- I want to say this is first or second season, er
-- Dubbed!
-- There are eleven, five are still in shrinkwrap

- Sailor Moon novels
-- You have to read them to believe them, okay
-- They cover the first season
-- There's five of 'em

- Lord of the Rings book boxset
-- Includes the Hobbit
-- Some movie tie-in, I think
-- ... Never read anything but the Hobbit

- Catch-22 book
- The Phantom Tollbooth book
- Bram Stoker's Dracula book
-- All are in perfect condition

And, yeah, stay tuned as I unearth this closet. I have an entire box full of stripped manga. o//

You know that strange effect where someone else is in so much trouble that you start getting shit too? By sheer virtue of existing?

Yeah. Looks like me and my fist are getting involved now.

Alright, I need some book recommendations, because I have re-read everything on my shelf twice over this past year. I like classic literature as I haven't read enough of them. I am generally okay with anything that is not science fiction or fantasy. Triple points if it sells for less than a dollar on Amazon. Spence, I am looking at you right now.